Carry nary any weary

Weary thy heart might be,
Burdened thy mind might be,
Confused thy soul might be,
But cometh the hour and cometh the man,
A dream that shalt be thine,
Deserveth by thine for thee,
Leave thou unto me all burden,
Carry nary any weary,
I beseech,
Carry nary any weary.

Gratitude

Cherished are those that ignite
Wonder in one's perception,
Shine and glimmer out of the dull,
Gather praise, deserving and undeserving.

Often are forgotten the monotonies of life,
Hidden in everlasting existence,
Existing in faithful companionship,
Ever stirring the life in the object.

But I pause in this moment,
Yes gratitude for what could be but what is,
Gifts of healing simplicity deserve their worth,
Yes, I cherish you.

Leaving

I am drowning; my strength diminishing, caught between fatigue and a lack of will power.
I am surrendering, with a last bit of curiosity, to destiny, to see what fate holds for me.
I am indulging, with a blasphemous negligence of myself, in the pleasures of guilt.
I am leaving; seek me not, no roads back to the present from the destination I seek for myself.

The Broken

I wish I could hold you
And say that I love you
I wish I could show you
What I feel inside,
But the pain pulls me down
Having you but not mine
Having you to not hold
I love so much
But I can't show it
I need you with me
But I know what's coming
Take me not for the wrong
Cause I still love you
Just as always
But now I just can't show you
Like how I could those lost days
I am still the same
I love you just the same
All the times I have waited
All the pain I have tasted
Was just for you
Hoping love would come
One day to make it all sweet
And wash off the wounds
Make me smile again

I know not what to tell you
But I just love you
Ask not why I still do
Because I always will do
Maybe you can't see it
But trust me it's right there
I hate that I am found lacking
But you know I am trying
I know all that you want
And I know I can give it
It's so painful to see me
I know what's coming
But I will still love you
Right till the end and beyond
It can't get more painful
Than this to love you
But I still will just love you
Like I did always
Ask me not why I do
But know that I still do
The world comes in between us
What if for just one moment
The world was with us
And was for us not against
But I don't hope for that

I know where I slipped
What I did and didn't
But I know I have been fair
I know I have been just
I never did you wrong
Cause all I did was love you
In all ways that I knew
And love you I did do
No one can doubt that
I say
Can the world just take a moment
To see what lies deep
And stop being unfair
Cause nothing else matters
But you know that won't come
You have to take it
If you ever decide to
The world just will not let go
You should see that
I say
Be brave this one time
You'll know 'Twas worth it
I wander as I talk
I say so many things
I see so many fears

I lose myself in all of the
Words, pain and sorrow
But when I step back
And look again
There's one thing that holds on
And that's just that I love you
Cause love you I did
It was what I promised
Times came and went
I kept my promise
Now I promise again
I can see it happen
I can see our dream t happiness
I trust it can happen
Through all the pain, difficulty
I still see hope
Sacrifices I don't care
Sacrifices come only to be gone
What can remain is what you need
And will remain is love
Love sweetened my pain all it could
Love heals so they say
Sometimes I bow down
Feel sorry for the love
It fought till the end

I know you don't trust love
But someday you again will
Cause its all that matters
Right at the end
And we all are the same
We need what we do need
Love never works against you
Love is yours for you
Take it or leave it
But do know what it is
Cause thats one thing it deserves
Recognition granting a few smiles
It's hard to wake up
To a day you don't want
It's hard to go to sleep
To a night you don't want
Maybe thats the price you pay
Nothing comes easy they say
I know not why I do what I do
The world questions me
It doesn't understand
It can't comprehend
As tough as it is for me
I try to let the world be
Cause just that really I can do

I hope and I wait
But I know what's coming
We all can see it
It's right there for me
But I still hope and wait
Like a fool wanting to be blind
Like a man staring the gallows
Knowing the end that awaits
But not knowing when it will all end
Not knowing how long the wait is
May end now
May end later
May end never
A life staring at the gallows
Is still sweeter than
Than what I don't know
They say
If not love time will heal it
But will it?
I say
Time may cover it
But the wounds will remain
I say to myself
Your only chance is love
And hope a fool's hope

I grow tired of my life
I can feel that I feel weak
Good, maybe I'll just sleep
Things slow down, voices float
And then she comes to me
The smile I know
The touch I crave
Like a glowing angel
It was high time she said
I know now what I need
Love is all one needs
I can trust you
You won't just love me
She says
They say its tough to give
So how can I not take?
An embrace that took ages to come
Comes in a moment that will be
Etched in my soul forever
A hug so tight, it said
I am back, we are again and we will be
Pearls of joy roll down my face
Happiness, relief, love, a smile
All are mine now, till it vanishes
As I wake up again, the moment gone

And another unwanted day
Running, hiding, then facing
Then hiding again
What was and what is
I wonder
Those lost days, those cherished times
But stop
What has is what is
And what is may be what will
But I crave to try a little smile
Has been long and I miss it
But take not me for the wrong
I say
I still love you just as always
But if it is the gallows he will get
Then give it to him!
If you can't do anything to prevent it
Grant it
If my heart is meant to be broken
I say
Tear it to pieces now and throw it!
I may take forever to gather the pieces
Might just as well start now
And live the life of a lost gatherer
Wondering what the end will be then..

Time

Glance out the window - no changes

 Silent and lonely summer afternoons; the sound of each drop of water, from a leaky tap, meeting its end; my grandmother's rhythmic breathing, the occasional swaying of the tall trees outside and the sighing of the wind are all I heard sitting down alone on the floor, unable to sleep for being a 2 year old. I observed the eery shadows cast by inanimate objects in the house, as though attempting to protest their lack of expression. Now I heard the cry of a man going about his profession of selling vegetables, it was the same as yesterday, and the day before yesterday, and the day before that, till as far back as I could remember. It was the sound of time, in those afternoons, that filled the space around me.

Two decades have been inserted by time in between now and those lost days; two decades of life, two decades of change, growth, emotions. Time has, so it feels, also inserted a clever 'lack of time' in my life, proving its shyness to me once again. Time only made itself heard to me on those lone afternoons, when I listened carefully to every move it made. Now it hides from me, in a game of hide and seek where I am no longer keen on seeking. But even now when I do listen, when I try to seek during any long summer afternoon, I hear the same voice as I did two decades ago. I can hear, so much has been changed by time but time remains the same. The spirit of time still flows around me as it once did, as it always will.

A moment's beauty

A man has one thing earned-
Freedom to choose a moment,
Of all that he has witnessed.
Freedom to colour a life into
That moment with a definition
Imagined by will of his freedom.

This I know and so I choose-
A moment that was a smile,
A splash of beauty so vibrant
I had stopped to hear its call.
Drowning myself I knew this was once,
So hear, see, feel, take.

A moments beauty, fortunate to see-
Seen, imagined or constructed, it was
As it was, as was just needed.
Taken for mine, with me forever,
Moments as a boy maketh the man,
So hear, see, feel, take.

I have almost finished uploading all the photos and videos. Each one of them seems to tell a story. Here are the links:

http://picasaweb.google.com/vinayarun


The facebook photo links have already been put up in a previous post.

Whew! Finally I reached home and I have so much to tell. I lost access to the internet midway and that's why I could not continue blogging. But now I will put together all my travel information and travel stories and upload them soon.

U N I V E R S A L S T U D I O S and H A L L O W E E N N I G H T

and now I am starting to miss home :-(

I left south Brunswick new jersey, and after a day of travelling reached my hostel in Orlando. This city is so weird! The entire city is like a fantasy world, it feels like I am in some cartoon, and the place is so very different from new York and new jersey. More on this is coming soon with pictures and videos!

The symposium 2008 is over and after the symposium I came to New York. I wish I could upload all the pictures and videos but right now I can't due to connectivity issues. But there are a lot of pictures and videos and lots to tell. New York I think is the best city I have ever been to.
Of all the things I liked here one of my favourites is how sounds like honks etc. echo through the streets because of the huge buildings all around. Wow!

It is 4 AM on the morning of the departure day. We will be leaving for the airport in one hour. The 2008 symposium is over. I will take with me a week of memories that can never be measured. I am going to miss everyone so much and can only hope that everyone makes it to the next symposium in India when I will be graduating from the foundation.
During the farewell dinner I heard one senior fellow of the foundation say "Another symposium has come and gone". Time smiles down at us and continues ticking.

For photos of the 2008 Melton Foundation symposium in New Orleans visit the following links:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=159272&l=a34b6&id=540550536

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=160966&l=0dfbb&id=540550536

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=161303&l=7310d&id=540550536

http://www.dusymposium2008.org/

28 september 2008 2 pm..... Fresh grapes, orange juice, huge turkey salami sandwich which I couldn't finish...but sleeping on the banks of the Mississippi with a full stomach on a lazy warm afternoon...:-) welcome to symposium 2008...

28 september 2008 12:15 am..... Sitting next to the pool, under the stars on a cool and clear New Orleans night, listening to stairway to heaven you can only tell yourself: "Do whatever it takes but just be happy, each moment gone is a moment lost."

Delhi-Chicago flight The flight didn't take a route that we imagined. Instead it went over Pakistan, Afghanistan, Kazakhstan, Russia, the NORTH POLE, Greenland and Canada. And because of the route we left at night and reached at night, but for a brief moment I saw sunlight in between while we were over the north pole.

27 september 2008 1:30 pm..... New Orleans first city outing: We went out for lunch into the city to a place calledAarby's. I have only been having fast food :-). Then we went to wall-mart and realised that it was a pretty bad neighbourhood. The people were quiet spooky and weird. You could sense it was unsafe. We were clever enough to take a taxi and not walk! We reached our hostel later in one piece and no one had stolen my laptop too! I also found a working plug point adapter for my laptop :-). Its 4 am in Iindia now and I have been smsing folks back in India.

27 september 2008 12:18 pm.....We reached the India House hostel and just unpacked a little. We took a shuttle from the airport to get here and saw a lot of the American characteristics that we were familiar with - the SUV's, the highways, the motels etc. The hostel is a very unique place. I will go out and take some pictures now.

27 september 2000 6:30 am We landed in chicago, its the first time I have stepped into the united states of America. We are half a globe away and I have this weird feeling seeing all the things in real life that I have been seeing on television and magazines for years now.